unholy Confession

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Hey ! It's me Syaza. Here is all about my memories with Arwah Amirul. Since we were inlove, then we break then next he's gone forever. My sincere thanks to those who became my follower and keep on reading my post. Im back here again :( I miss you so much Mirul !

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

happy six month anniversary


i love you sayang.no matter what happen.and it will last forever ;(

6 month more to gooo

hahaha. lagi 6 bulann, genap setahun. rase rase, kali neyh boleh bertahan setahun takk ?
mhmmm.
dlm hatiku berkata,

"tolong laa biar kali neyh yang terakhir. dan kekal lama. sungguh penat mencari cinte. sudaa penatt towk kecewe lagi"

whoaaa. hahhahaa :D seriously, memang dah pnt cpl, break, cpl, break -.-
tapi bagaimanakah untuk ktew mengekalkan rumah tangga yang harmoni ? wahhhh. rumah tangga. wooot ! :o hahaha

tapi sayangg, orang yang sudah berkahwin berpuluh tahun, beranak pinak pon boleh bercerai, inikan pulak kekasih yang baru hanya 2 bulan 1 minggu bermadu kasih. bolehkah ktew bertahann ?
mhmm. tak pasti. tapi hati mengharapkan kebahagiaan :)

Monday, May 18, 2009

tanpa title.

PS: wahai sayang, sedarkah engkau bahawa aku selalu memikirkan perjalanan hubungan kita ? sejauh mana akan kita bawa hubungan ini ? aku mohon, aku merayu, tunjukkan lah jalan kebahagiaan. bukan derita yang aku minta. dan, maafkan aku untuk segala kesilapan yang telah dan akan ku lakukan ="")

Sunday, May 17, 2009

false thought

i thought i can meet you today,
i thought you want to meet me today,
i though i can see you smile again,
i thought i will never cry today,
but it alll false.
hmph,

i miss when we were back then, hee. IMY ;(

Monday, May 11, 2009

never let it go ;(

:)i would never let go of something that precious that ever happen to me. will you ? mhmm.

well, i'm sorry fo i've said in my early post. yeahh, i did it based on my angry heart. as i said, i'm an adult who act like a child. and a child will never think before do something, rightt ? well, i'm sorry. of course, when we are grow up, we can think carefully and wisely. we should, rightt ?
and from now on, i will act properly. i will think wisely. i will do something carefully and i will do the right things. but hey, didn't people make mistakes ? yeahh, A LOT OF MISTAKES. well, nobody perfect rightt ? and i'm one of that people.
i guess, life is like a wheel. if we have problems, thats what we call the ups and downs of life. am i right ? i hope so. heee :) well, guide me to do the right things. cuz i don't really tell people when i have problems. in blog, yeah i did. but i didnt actly tell people face to face. i mean, i can't say a word in front of people about my problems.

mhmm. do i have still have chances ? idk. but i hope so that i do have chances to fix all my mistakes.**bobot, i'm sorry if i change and it make you change too. i know, its not your fault. in fact, its mine. and i'm sorry bcuz of it, both of us are suffering without we realizing it. i am so sorry.

i love youu.

Friday, May 8, 2009

the most precious things in my life,

this is the precious-things-that-i-own list :)

1)HIM-AMIRUL RAZAILI *im not sure if i still own him or not ;
(2)my family-mama,abah,mya,elmo,baby ekey
3)all my closest friends-u know who u are
4)my handphone-exchange it with APEX
5)baby bobot *again and again just him ;
(7)all the memories that built by me and him ;
(8)watch that gave by mama and him



*i dont know why i wrote this entry,

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

for HIM

ilysm sayang. akutataw bape byk kali kite gado, break up, couple again.sumpaaaku da ta heran da. tapi even relation kite 'K.O'aku tapenaa try sayang orang laen selaen kaw. jgn tinggal kan aku lagi taw gyler. aku penatlaa maen maen dgn kaw cmni.btw, kami bersepak terajang back. yah i miss this part.

*tears*

sudaa laa. aku da penat da brade kurt sini. well. i'm leaving. rumaa aku family tgh gado. den dgn c apex tuh lagi prob ta settle. bye korng. aku jaranf na online da. aku penat laarr dgn life aku cmni !

Monday, May 4, 2009

sucks !

im broken heart again !
status for now : menJANDA again ;(

thinking of you

comparasons are easily done,
once you've had a taste of perfection,
like an apple handing from a tree i pick the ripest on i still got the seed,
you said move on where do i go,
i guess second best is all i will know,
cause when im with him i am thinking of you,
what you would do if,
you were the one who was spending the night,
oh i wish that i was looking into your eye,
you're like an indian summer in the middle of winter,
like a hard candy with a surprise center,
how do i get better once ive had the best,
you said there's tons of fish in the waters,
so the waters i will test,
he kissed my lips i taste your mouth,
he pulled me in,
i was discussed with myself,
the best and oh i do regret,
how could i let myself let you go,
and now,
now the lessons learned,
i touched and i was burned,
oh i think you should know,
wont you walk through and,
bust down the door and take me away no more mistakes,
cause in your eyes i'd like to stay,

Sunday, May 3, 2009

status : menJANDA

menJANDA gain and again yaw! happy with my status. nomore you in my life syng. haha ! clash clash clash ! like i care. already fade up with your stupid words.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

effin bored + sad = stupid of me

Masih ku tak berdaya
Melupakan mu
Di hatiku berkata
Apakah sebenarnya cinta
Di hati ini
Hanya mainan semata
Namun kau tak mengerti
Apakah sebenarnya yang telah terjadih
Di diri ini
Kau yang masih di hati
Tidak terdaya
Untuk mengundur diri
Darimu
Setelah engkau pergi
Tiada apa yang ada di diri ini
Kuharapkan kau kan berubah hati
Semoga kau kan kembali
Di diri ini


im fucking fuck myself aite fo the fucking shit reason who fucking make me fucking angry with myself and im fucking stupid fo caring this fucking stupid problem which fucking burden me and fucking stupid make me let my fucking tears fucking run down which fucking nobody will fucking know how i fucking feel in this fucking momment that i fucking can stand anymore ! URGH !well, sorry fo too many insulting. i'm just effin fucking mad. oops, i did it again ! whatever -.-

Thursday, April 16, 2009

no title ;((

what shoul i do now ? everything seems hate me now. ape yg aku wat sume x btol *tears* .

baby,
how can i forget you hah ?
how can i find another guy if in my heart i just want you ;((

mama,
kakyong taw kakyong bukan anak harapan mama.
tapi x bleyh kew mama bg smg skeyt pown kurt kakyong ?

weyh ! i think i should die. seriously !aku da ta mampu na tanggong neyh sume da. aku ta larat
;(nobody even care how much i hurt, how pain in my heart.

OH GOD !
please take me.
aku ta spatotnyer hidop dlm dunia engkaw neyh.
aku x mampu tanggung neyh sume.
aku hambamu yg lemah.

rull,
if i maty i harap u bahgie ;)
i akan bhgie juge ble kaw bhgie syng.
sorry for everything baby .

mama,
kakyong minta maaf.
i know i cant be the best but i try too.
tapi sume bg mama tade makne.maafkn salah kakyong mama.

p/s : sorry now jarang update. prob besepah kurt kepale otak aku skunk ;((

Friday, April 10, 2009

he is mine !

ILYSDM. nobody can replace you in my heart. damn ! dont you know how important you are in my life ? dont leave me again baby. im surely die living without you. we were meant togetehr baby. BITCHES ! HE'S MINE ! JUST MINE ! cant you understand it hahhh ?

Thursday, April 9, 2009

he is back larh !


he is back ;DD baby ily. thanx bg i pluang kedua. janji pasni i dgr ckp u syng. i ta nakal nakal da. syng awk !

it just for you mirul ;(

we were the happiest couple, *i guess so* .i started to really really love him after we were together. seriously, its hard to love someone. and so that is why this guy, i really really love and i tried to take good care of him cuz im not as as perfect as other girls. and yeah, i do. i've swear for god sake, this is the one. i do need him all my life. ;"(

and noww after almost five months we havee been sailing in this love boat, when i really love him, he left me for a reason that i dont know whats the reason is ;( he walkaway and left without words. but still, i'm here, waiting and waiting and waiting ;"(

baby; i'll pray for your happiness
even its hurts me when i see you happy with other girl.
this heart still breathing for your love,
syahnafiza yaacob

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

is it our ending baby ?

betul ke ? ini penghujungnya ? hanya kerana tekanan, dia lepaskan semuanya. aku terpaku saat melihat kata-katanya. hati terdetik, "sampai hati awk wat sayer mcmni !" ;( aku tertekan. hati terbit perasaan hampa. hancur seperti pasir. ibarat takkan tersambung lagi. mati seperti dulu.

*menangis*

hati menyanyikan irama yang mendayu dayu. fikiran melayang. teringat saat itu. hari bahagia itu. saat pertama kali kenal. saat pertama kali mengikat ikatan ini. saat pertama kali bertemu. saat pertama kali bergaduh dan kembali baik. saat pertama kali menikmati segala-galanya. tapi, kini semua dah terputus. melayang-layang, tak dapat aku capai. hati menjerit, "sial!", air mata jatuh menderu ;"(

kau yang memulakan, kau yang mengakhirkan.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

end of story ;((

kaw tinggalkan aku cam babi jew ! babi ahh kaw cilake pundek !
*tears*
baby , sumpaa i syng kurt u lagi. tapi stop laa wat i cmni. i need you back ;((

Sunday, April 5, 2009

day by day, our relation is getting BORING ! *no more sweet text/no more phone call* from him. since the day i meet him, i can feel the different between us. SERIOUS SHIT ! i didnt get any message from him since April 1st.

"BABY, whats wrong with our relation now ? everything suddenly changes. dont you ever miss me ?"

ohh gosh. i dont know what i think about. am i getting bored to be inlove with him ? i dont have the answer right now. *tears*

Thursday, April 2, 2009

favourite dow ! haha

I'm liking the picture above. Who doesn't duhh.You don't have to tell me whats right & wrong, THX. JUST SAVE IT.

Monday, March 30, 2009








aku dgn dorg yang gyler ;)) haha ;)) lepak pd same same ;)
kakyong//sheta//adek am
sumpaa besh lol !


Saturday, March 28, 2009



Love,
Knowing someone love us,
Make us happy.

Doubt,
Letting doubt possess our heart,
Is a big mistake.

Doubting their love,
Lead us to sorrow,
With which we fear.

Love,
Just say it,
Never bury it deep down our heart.

The consequences,
may cause heartbrake of the other.

my baby ekey ;)

comel tak ? ney laa baby sayer ;)
syahdaniel riezqie ;)
ily baby ;))

Friday, March 27, 2009

untuk kaw la syng !


kaw tahu aku rinduu kaw ? ahh, aku cuba tahan. memang la tahan tapi sampai bile ? bile nak bersua muke lagi ? bile nak sepak terajang ? pelok pelok ? aduhh rinduu kaw laa syng !

*syaza,mula dah kaw punya poyo*ahh biaa laa aku yg taipkan

aku rinduu cara kaw tengok aku. rinduu kaw pegang tangan aku. rinduu dgr kaw ejek aku *cousin aku ckp un kite cam catdog tapi sgt romantik bile bersame.AHHA* aku nak kaw depan mate aku larh !

*cis, ayat tak tahan nak gedik*

yalaa tiap tiap hary dengar suara kaw dlm tepon. mane nak lepas un rinduu aku kan ? da sminggu kite x jumpe. nnty aku tw jumpe. ta jumpe cyap kaw !

lagi satu. aku syng kaw lar bobot
*bersengih sendiri di hadapan komputer*

i hate myself ;(



sumpah, kadang2 aku nak give updah tak boleh tahan lagi dah.PENAT ! itulahh yang hati aku selalu merungut. selalu mengadu.sampai bilaaku kene tahan semua neyhh ? aku nak hidup normal.PLEASE ? =(
pasal hidup aku BOSAN,
pfft ! everyday is the SAME !
kenape tak ade yang laen ?
orang sane snini kejar hot
kutuk mengutuk
pulau memulauupukul memukul
tapi aku ?
one word, *HAMBAR*
dah laa,aku dah tak larat nak tekan keyboard yang memekak bila aku tekan neyh.
*tears*

i miss you guys weyh ;(


*ocha//memey*

*rusza/syaza/arena*

*loly/elmo/syaza*

*ex dorm-mate*

*una/jaja/syaza*

best friends, i dont know what happens to us. but i just want u to know that i love && miss you so much. i try to be a good friends for u but i can't be that. i always remember && think about u even i know u are not remember && think about me. u are always in my hearts even we are too far now. i try to happy,laugh && enjoy my life by myself without you but it still not the same. sorry for everything *tear* i know sometimes im too selfish but i try to care your hearts as i can coz i dont want to lose u && i want u to be happy with me.i think i am losing u now. take care. i pray for u. if u need me,i always there or u.
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING
nota kaki : not in picture *lynn/niena* imy guy weyh ! ;(
love;
syahnafiza yaacob









Thursday, March 26, 2009

whats goin on ?



aku nak jadi yang baru.
yang berani untuk segalanya.
bangkit selepas tersungkur lah ni kononnya :)
*repeat my exam back*
*try to find a better job*
*coba untok berubah walaupon agak payah*
mampu kew ?
try aje laa kan.
mane taw dapat brubah ;D
nota kaki : manusia berubah apabila tersedar dari dunia yg palsu semate
*tataw laa ape aku ngarut kali ney*

ily BOBOT !

everytime you say, everytime we kissing,
i cant think straight. and i cant think of anybody else.
i hate ti miss as much as i hate to missing you.
months go strong now, and ni goodbye.
unconditional, unoriginal.
you always by myside. mean to be togetehr.
meant for no one but each other.
you love me, i love you harder so.
so please gimme your hands.
please gimme a lesson.
on how to steal. steal the heart.
as fast as you stole my heart.

PS : I LOVEEEEEEEEE YOU SO MUCH BOBOT !

boredom kills me larr !



*aku yang gila*



*nenek yg rawk*



*ekey and i said "shout it loud"*

bilaa kebosanan melanda ney laa keje aku ;DD

haha lawa un aku *gilo perasan lawa muke cam da cam orng gila da*





message aku yang bodoh !

"baby bobot !
topup laa ariney.
syaza rindu awk laa syng.
rinduu tu menyaketkan.
nk kish ! nk kish !
sumpaa i ske lip u yg noty gyler vavi tu.
aku kagen bangat same kamuBOBOT !
u x topup u x syng i.syng syng !
chenta sayer kurt awk taleyh pdm.nk kawen !
lame towl tgu u masok meminang i.haha.
syng u mirul. "

ini text yg aku hantar kurt mirul razaili pg td.
haha aku masok aer dow ! bleyh merapu merapu ayat aku kasi dye ;)
fuck ohh aku mcm sangap gyler kurt dye skg.
weyh syng ! rindu gyler dowh kurt kaw.
bgon tdow td tbe tbe aku terengat kurt lip kaw yg sexy tuh.
when your lip touch my lip *especially slalu terjadik tyme kami bangun tdow*
i can feel how deep u love me baby.
not just only dat oke.
syng syng pelok laa i ! pelok laa !*gatal gyler aku*
rinduu gyler kurt tangan u yg gatal tuh ble berjalan jalan kurt pinggang i ;)
wee ~i can hear your heart beating fast syng while i doing that.
i also can feel your *boboy* suddenly wake up ;pp

p/s: act sayer dgn mirul da oke kowt. pagi tadi dlm kowl 4 elbeyh he askesd me too call him.waa . he miss me. taw pown u rinduu i ble i hilang. haa laen kali ckp lagi tanak contact sminggu.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

pussy & boboy

pussy : boboy boboy ;)
boboy : ye pussy syng ;)
pussy : boboy rindu pussy x ? lame s jumpe un. pussy da mule jadik gyler rinduu !
boboy : boboy rinduu pussy jugak laa. rinduu sgt sgt. sangap gyler kowt kurt pussy.nak tiom tiom. geget geget. boboy dukong pussy , pussy dukong boboy.sangap ohh !
pussy : pussy suke pussy suke . boboy pussy ta tahan laa. tbe tbe rase dahage sgt. tbe tbe tringin minom aer yang boboy slalu kasi pussy minom uh.
boboy : nnty boboy bg pussy oke. pussy boboy tbe tbe lapaa laa. nak mkn ..
pussy : nak mkn ? dtng laa jumpe pussy. pussy bg boboy mkn sampai kenyang. sampai boboy pwas.pussy bwat special. khas towk boboy syng ;))
boboy :yekew ? geram laa. x sbr nak jmpe pussy boboy neyh. jumpe mlm neyh buleyh ? da x sbr laa.
pussy : boleyh boleyh. mlm neyh line clear. dtng oke. lame sgt tahan geram mengidam aer boboy.boboy : oke pussy syng. jumpe mlm nnty oke. ily. bye.
pussy : ilyt boboy. bye.


tapaham ? ahah ! x suruh pown kaw orng paham post neyh.mcm ayat porno ? agak agak skeyt weyh !hanyer * aku dan dye * saje yg taw maksod d sbalik ayat tuh.tade kene mengene dgn bende bende lucah oke.kan kan syng ?
ps : bobot ! nonot suke laa kalau bobot ckp lucah lucah ngan nonot. haha ;DD(gatal nyer aku bodoh !)

new name ;)

btw nak bgtaw
now ATOK KEREPOT da bertukaa kepada BABY BOBOT

Saturday, March 21, 2009

dye curang ataw aku bangang ?

wey ! boring dowh mlm neyh.
sumpaa rinduu gyler kurt my baby. sape lagi si atok kerepot tuh laa.
ey dak kicik rinduu atok gyler vavi ohh !
tapi dye langsung ta text aku.fhm fhm jew laa.
kami gado.hary hary sure gado jew.

btw, almost 4 month kami bersame ohh. gosh ! i cant believe it dat our relationship can go far like this. too much thing we share each other and too much memory dat we make it together ;))
even u slalu wat i nanges tapi i tapenaa heran skeyt pown. kite gado cmne pown we still never end up our relation ryte.

(time gadoh dgn boifren boifren)
DULU : ey tade laky pown aku mampu hidop laa! bukan mati pown kalau kaw hilang.ramai lagi leyh jadik pengganti kaw.
SKG : i can't live without you baby. if u leave me, im surely dead.no one can replaced you in my heart.

haha. love change people ryte.

eyh eyh. ape ape ? kaw ckp ape hah ?
dye curang ?
hey babi !agak agak laa nak ckp laki aku cmtu.i know my boy very well. dye tapenaa laa nak layan mane mane bitches out there or nombor2 sesat yg kacau dye.kalau kaw rase kaw bgos sgt nak try jadik madu aku or pmpwan simpanan laki aku try arr kalau buleyh. nak numb dye eyh ? nak kacau dye ? or kaw nak wat ktorg gado ? bleyh bleyh. mintak kurt aku. aku kasik punyer. aku yg hebat ney dulu pown before dpt dye penaa try kacau. tapi know what he do to me. dye maki aku suke suke dye ade laa. so tapayaa nak wat cite dye curang ngan aku okeh ! aku taw sgt prangai dye laa.
aku bangang ?
apahal lak kaw nak ckp aku cmtu ? sbb aku pilih laki cm dye ? hey pegi mampus laa dgn hidop aku. kaw sibok pahal.aku da pilih dye so nape ? kaw jelez. kaw engat kaw hawt kaw mmpu dpt kan aku baleyk laa.hey TTYH larh ! aku ta perlu laki hawt cam kaw ataw sesape pown.wat susaa hdop aku jew. betine sane sini. mcm laa kaw hensem sgt.bg aku laki aku lg hensem laa. more loyal then you oke!


so, kepade sape sape yg kutok aku dgn laki aku or try hancurkan relation kami, kaw boleyh pegi mampus.idk who he is and what people say bout us. what i know is i love him much than i love you ! so do him ! heyh fucker ! kalau kaw ckp dye x layak utk aku laa, aku boleyh carik laky lagi bagos laa, ape laa un un.kaw cermin diri kaw sendiri dulu oke. kaw lagi x layak nk berade disamping aku bodoh !


kenape aku ckp dye setia dgn aku ?

smlm tah dari mane tah tbe2 terlintas dlm kepale otak aku idea jahat. idea nak kenekan dye.aku taw dye jujur dgn aku tapi saje nak mengacau. aku kan si kecik yg nakal (mirul slalu ckp cmtu) haha ;DDso lakonan bermule. aku ciptakan diana rahim dlm keje jahat aku neyh.starting from mskowl. the story begin when he text dat 'diana rahim'.

plan pertama

mrul:kamu sape ?
dyna:oh hey!diana here.
mrul:diana mane?ley bg resume x?
dyna:xtaw la u kenal x.i pown x knal u.saje kacau2 dpt.diana rahim 20 pj. u?
mrul:pelik!cmne dpt no ni??amirul dok sg buloh.
dyna:up to u to trust it.jom hang out saturday neyh nak?jap . u ade gf x ? fon ade mms?
mrul:herm ok.nak hang out?u n i ? gf ade ade.mms pown ade.ngape ye?

kami pown keep on message.mintak dye hantar gmbr.tp dye ckp crdt tade.terpakse laa aku hantar. tapi dye ckp dye ta dapat mms (bodoo jugak aku kan.dye gune hpon ape.cmne nak dpt mms uh).

plan kedua

terpakse gune plan kedua. tapi bukan aku yg tanyer dye ade myspace x. dye yg tanyer aku. kire oke laa.mule mule aku nak kasi blog. tapi pk pk baleyk kantoi laa bg address. terpakse laa bg myspace. tapi lucky akupandai aku kasik dye last name aku. aku engat dye nak bukak. rupe rupenyer dye suruh add dye plak.adoiyai. dye ta tgk lagi laa muke aku.

tbe tbe dye suruh hntr mms. yes ! plan pertame bejalan. he asked diana to send picture to his second num (engat aku bodoo kew. tuu numb mak kaw laa ngok!).haha. know what happen after he received diana's picture ? he text my numb after dat. tapi terharu gyler dgn text dye especially yg 3 dan 4.

mrul:haha da agak da u ingt i bodo ke ha?x yah blakon r syaa i tau laa u nk test i..amcm pedih aty ?syza:haha..skeytpown xpedih.
mrul:da laa syaa i sje sje antar msg cm2.mule mule je i da tau laa.
syza:but i dont feel hurts even a bit.cume i rase bodo threat u dis way.just want to get some mood.
mrul:haha.u i bukan knal u smalam auw i knl u 6bln yg lepas auw.i sje je x antar no ni sbb i tau ni u.
syza:thanx darl.i know who u are.u never be nice to other stranger.dats y i dont wanna loose u baby. n now im too happy to have u in my life.
mrul:sya i x bleyh nk syng org laen slaen u syng pecayelaa.i da warning u awal2 i nak serious da n i xnk men un pompwan ag.

serious biaa laa dye mat rempit or whteva fucking pown,
he is da best boy that i ever had.dye lagi setia dari laki yang konon konon nyer jambu.
im too proud to having him in my life dr laky yg taw maenkan pmpwan jew.

on dat nyte jugak kami gayut for two hours ;))
melepas kan segala rinduu kowt !mirul nakal ! dye gune ayat ayat nakal.
cyot jew laki aku ney.nak kene cuci otak kowt bagi bersih.
haha ;DD believe me syng.
one day u will get everything from me.
nnty every nyte what projek mcm yg u nak tuh oke haha ;DD
(layan jew laa gyler otak dye mlm tuh)

tapi last last kami gado.nanges nanges aku mlm tadi ble dye tbe tbe tanak ckp dgn aku.
dye tros letak tepon smpai laa ke hary ney lgsung x text aku.

syng syng syng.
i give you all my heart and my soul dear.
u are da one dat i love so.
nobody can take me away from you coz u hold da key to my heart.
just you !
baby, do hold me tightly and dont ever let me go.
u do need me as i need u too.
iloveyousodamnfuckingmuch MIRUL RAZAILI ;)

im sorry for what i've done ;(

Thursday, March 19, 2009

dye pegi PLKN da ;((



credit to shafirol amir <333
will missing yah efi ;(
meet again on june 8 .take care yah.jgn nakal nakal auw !
[our last memory together ;((]

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

sedeyh sedeyh ;((






knape ntah aku tade mood nak menulis.
apek ohh apek ..
aku rinduu kaw laa.malam tadi bangon tdow nanges nanges pk pasal kaw jew.kaw jgn tgl kan aku ohh.
plz plz plz.aku syng gyler kurt kaw.sumpah !

Monday, March 16, 2009

tgk wayang !

meet amirul razaili !
g tgk wayang cyter rasukan ablasa.besh cyot. panggung wayang tuh mcm tmpt kami berdua jew.
haha sebab ta ramai orng ade pown.
just ade 4 orng termasok kami.
kesimpulan cyter tuh not bad laa.

saspen pown tade laa banyak sgt.
cume tentang persahabatan dorg tuh yang wat aku terharu sgt.
seyes besh kalau ade kawan cam dlm cyter uh.
kawan yang sgop berkorban towk kawan dye yang laen.
tapi starting cyter tuh agak seronok gak laa.wat aku ngan mirul tutt jew ;pp

Saturday, March 14, 2009

jalan jalan d pavillion


ney gambar aku ngan elmo tyme kwar tadi ;))


jalan jalan ;)
today aku hang out. saje nak melepas un tension dowk rumaa.i miss my mirul. agak lame xkwar same.tapi kalau aku ajak dye pown dye bukan nyer nak kwar pown.susaa towl laa.


hurm .. know what. cam bese laa aku jalan jalan dgn gay gay sedunia.haha last last aku ngan el lary dari dorg.x sangke dpt meet baleyk memey ;) rinduu dye kowt. ex scandal aku dulu.dulu aku punyer laa syng dye. tapi skunk da tade pape.setia pade AMIRUL jew kowt ;pp dye kwar dgn kazen dye c acap uh.


den jalan jalan lagi meet plak dgn emy my ex bf yg sblowm neyh.bukan dye jew. dak dak sentol yg aku kenal laa.nk ckp syng tak jugak kurt c emy uh. nak ckp x syng tipuu la kan.hurm aku anggap dye kawan jew kowt.da tade prasaan cm dulu daa.


and last last meet c cerry yang gyler !lepak lame jugak laa. cyan u un skunk band da x laku.haha ;DD
ney gmbar aku and elmo tyme hang out arytuh.gyler selekeh dowl ;pp




Wednesday, March 11, 2009

imissmyoldroomweyh !

romeo and juliet


Juliet adalah daun, Romeo adalah angin, yg datang tiba-tiba, meniup rindu, menghembus asa, membuai daun, hingga kadang, daun menjadi hijau segar, namun ketika angin berlalu, hilang begitu saja di putaran waktu, daun itu menguning, sebelum sang waktu menjemputnya, karena terjatuh di tanah, biarlah daun itu gugur, karena kehendak Sang Alam, bukan karena tiupan kencang sang angin kembara, atau bukan karena tangkainya menjadi lemah, ketika tahu angin tlah pergi, menghilang tanpa bekas, meninggalkannya layu membiarkannya kering, terjatuh terkubur debu bumi, itulah Juliet, tempatnya mencari kesejukan, dan dipaksa dikeringkan, yang sering tak terpikirkan, dilupakan akan kekuatannya, buat abadikan cinta si ROMEO & JULIET.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

rinduu rinduu rinduu !

to : amirul razaili !
i missed you damn fucking much baby !
god i just want to meet him everyday . plz plz plz ;((

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

stay rumaa shafi ;)

weyh aku stay kurt rumaa kazen aku
start hary neyh auw !
(4 march 2008 until 9 march 2008)
papahal kowl aku jew !

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

ini nenek sayer ;)



nenek sayer yang rawk walaweyh !
kakyong syng nenek sgt sgt ;))
ney nenek aku. dye memang sporting gyler .
haha . sebab tu aku syng dye ;))

Monday, March 2, 2009

story of AXXARULL

meet amirul razaili today !
he make my heart beat faster & faster when he touch me, he hold me tightly, he kissed me ;))
gambar kami yang sengal ;pp
sgt sgt sgt syng sama dea ;D
axxarull

syaza : atok tua sengal yang kerepot . sayer syng awk lar !
mirul : bdak kcik yg kepochi ni yg mereng..syng awak juge..

memory of us ;DD

Saturday, February 21, 2009

to AMIRUL RAZAILI

syng syng syng . plz dont ever leave me.
ILYSM baby . i know that you love me too.
plz plz plz . dont you ever say goodbye forever to me ;(
i need you in my life syng .

god . plz dont take him from me. i need him .
he mean a lot in my life .

give me time
to proove it to him that i just love him .

Friday, February 20, 2009

happy happy ;DD


mirul called me today ;))
around 01:26 am

heppy heppy !
he said dat he miss me and love me too .
syng syng , i pown same auw !
jangan carik perempuan laen okeh coz i akan tunggu you sampai ble ble ;DD
promise promise ;DD

Saturday, February 14, 2009

T O D A Y

14 FEBRUARY 2009. it was a valentine day where a da y to remember their lover , spent time together

but for me, today is a day where he makes me cry for all day. btw THANX DEAR !

"aunty soory mirul x dapat datang. mirul demam panas"
message from MUHAMMAD AMIRUL RAZAILI
he text my mom like that after he promise me , he give me a hope to come to my second house (at puchong) to gimme a surprise , to celebrate valentines day together but it's over after he text me said "sorry i taleyh datang. i x larat. lagipown jaoh." what ? is that easy for me to accept it ? he break my heart !
now , on evening , aku dudok kurt pondok blakang rumaa aku, memangdang ke arah tasik, melihat matahari terbenam , aku menangis sepuas puas nyer . ini kew nasib aku ? walau ape pown aku kene terime. bukan kew dye yang aku pilih ? "all by myself by air supply" menghangatkan lagi aer mate aku untok jatoh. aku yg ta faham dye ataw dye yg ta faham aku ? aku ney terlalu memakse kew ? i have my own reason why im doing all dat. kalau boleyh aku nak tgk dye tiap tiap hary. watching him day by day make my life feel so happy. i never know what da meaning of boring when i'm with him. i need him all my day, until the rest of my life. i need him by myside always
"terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
kaw berikan lagi kesempatan ini
tak akan terulang lagi semua
kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu"
song dedicated to him

valentines day ;DD






Skema as it sounds, happy valentines or twist it to hari kekasih? hahaha, wtv jer, lol :)

Okay bersedih sikit, my bf cam ta engat je date neyh. dye bz dgn life dye jew. cam tanak celebrate pown ade gak. huhu. besok dye nak g amek lesen moto laa. den nak g rawang amek kete. at least hary sabtu taleyh ahad laa un. tapi ahad lak dye nak g melake ngan kawan kawan dye. and me ? dye tinggalkan aku ! weyh ! sedeyh neyr !




14 FEBRUARY 2009
tomorrow laa !
[special date. see whether my boifee know bout it or not]

ape laa laki aku nak kasi aku un. huhu. seriously now tgh mengahara gyler dari dye. ta dapat pape keceewe laa kowt ! huhu.

Friday, February 13, 2009

loved ;D



"look me in the eyes dear ;)"
syaza fieyza&&amirul razaili

Iloveyouforever syng.goodnyte.imissyou.
MWAHXIE !


maybe . .

Maybe tak? awak rase awak dah buat yang terbaik, tapi terbaik dalam dictionary kita, tak same dengan org lain.
Maybe tak? Awak rase awak baru buat sikit, tapi sebenarnye, ape yang awak buat tu dah cukup memadai. Sangat cukup.

Mungkin jugak, we human can't judge everything that we do. Sebab tu lah, it's very important to have 2nd and even better, 3rd opinion. Nak lagi best? Suruh je sumeorang review kite. Haha ;DD Tapi , ' Boleh ke kita terima sume yg org ckp?'
Kadang kadang, kita ego. Kate "takpe lah ckp je lah the truth, i would love to hear it." Tapi the truth that we want, bukannye always be the real truth. Ade jugak orang kate macam ni, "if you are my friend, tell me everything". Woah cakap bagai nak rak, tapi at the end, punya maki hamun kawan kita yang tried to be honest tuh. kesian die tak pasal pasal kena kutuk belakang diri dia. Kan dah.

Sebab tu lah, for me, i think it's such a seldom thing to happen. To meet someone who can reallllly take criticism and make the best out of it.
Contohnye : bila boss die direct cakap kat die, "awak ni lembab lah". (benda ni memamng betul betul jadi, ok.) and orang tu boleh tahan the anger, the humiliation, and keep her chin up and say sorry. Lepas tu pulak, start buat kerja laju laju and try jadi lagi alert dengan anything new.
Sangat susah. Tak ramai orang boleh jadi macam ni. that includes me. Mungkin i will be the first person yang akan surrender to be like this. Ape ape pon, tak salah untuk cuba. Cuba and cuba and cuba and cubaaaaaa lagiiiiiiii! yeah yeah

Lagi satu, and this one is related with the above. "trying to stay positive" Ah benci. Sebab benda ni susah sangat nk buat. Susah sangat nk even just try! Grrr grrrr. Im a complete loser in this. In fact, dah ramai dah ckp mcm ni. Susah tau. Nak transform negative to positive, mcm nak tukar two different poles, tuh! Tapi mungkin. Mungkin lagi. Kita satu hari akan berjaya jugak. IF we dont stop trying. Never stop trying. ah, itu betul. Hahaha. Kalau nak lagi mudah, find someone yang sangat bagus and suruh die bagi wake up call sikit kat diri kita. Mentor saya is mr A ;DD You dont have to find someone that starts with A jugak, kot. Hahahhaha.
Ape ape pon, yang penting, i would like to say, that i very much take a bow down tho those people who have the above qualities. Truthfully, in 10, maybe only a few reflects these qualities inside of them.


Roar! Cheers to them. People yg cool. :D

Thursday, February 12, 2009

ME



I really wish I had the ability to STOP the TIME.
I have huge plans and dreams for myself.
I'm pretty much over Myspace.
I should talk about what?-Hm... I really don't know. Okay then bye.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

am i hurt him ?



MUHAMMAD AMIRUL RAZAILI
syng sorry . i taw hari ney i yg salaa.
i pegi mcm tuu jew tgl un u. tapi i x bermaksud pown.
knape mesti HAZRIN ade dlm masalah ni ?
i syng u jew. dye ? i da lupekan oke.
plz baby . .
i just need u in my life. tapi nape susaa sgt u nak faham ?
kite da janji un same same smpai ble ble ?
u da lupe janji u ?
i need u my dear ;( i do need u.
u never know what is in my heart.
u never know how much i love you.
syng plz plz ..
if u can read my heart u will know how much i love you syng.
seriously u are the only one in my heart ;)
[today kitorang gado. mule mule tade pape. tah time aku mesej dgn hazrin tbe tbe lepas tuh dye wat muke dgn aku sampai aku nak nanges pown dye wat tataw. last last aku makan tukar baju tros kwar dari rumaa. aku biaa un dye. aku taw baleyk rumaa nnty dye da tade kurt rumaa da. syng , sorry for what i've done. aku kwar first first aku text dye. den aku g kdai topup un dye den aku tros g online. layan lagu .. and skunk neyh aku asyik engat dye jew. nape susaa sgt dye nak bace haty aku ? huh ! ]
ILYSDFM baby ;))