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Hey ! It's me Syaza. Here is all about my memories with Arwah Amirul. Since we were inlove, then we break then next he's gone forever. My sincere thanks to those who became my follower and keep on reading my post. Im back here again :( I miss you so much Mirul !

Sunday, August 5, 2012

A million times we've needed you,
A million times we've cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.
If all the world was ours to give,
We would give it yes, and more,
To see you coming up the steps,
And walking through the door.
To hear your voice and see your smile,
To sit and talk a while,
To be with you that same old way,
Would be our fondest day.
A heart of gold stopped beating,
Two smiling eyes closed to rest,
God broke our hearts to prove to us,
He only takes the best.

Hi there!

Mirul,
Dah lama saya tak singgah sini. Dah lama saya diamkan diri. Dah lama saya tak singgah tengok awak. Well, my life has change now. Well, I am a mother now you know :) Hihihi. My baby is a boy. Well, i and Syed name it Mikael Malique Al-Hakim. 

Mirul,
sometimes, when i rewind back my memory, it remind me of you. Yes you. Well, i regret with what happen. Regret what happen to us, regret with what i did to you. I broke your heart. And after that, guy broke my heart back. What goes around comes around right? Tiga lelaki lepas you, at last, i found my happiness. I found my true love. He is Syed Mohammed Al-Kherid. He is not like other guys who i met before. He is totally change. Yes he is different. 

I wish you were here. A few days ago, abang shah did called me. Haihh, rinduunya nak jumpa korang. But takdir dah tentukan segalanya kan? Awak pergi dulu. Rest in peace there Mirul. I'm here always pray for you. Even we are far away.



"my darling friend, 
when I went outside late that night,
I saw a star burning ever so bright,
I knew you had left this earth to go up above,
To rest in peace and have eternal Love.
But the memories of our days together,
Will stay deep inside my heart forever."

Friday, January 20, 2012

you are in a better place is it ? 
is everything okay? 
almost a year, awak pergi. 
hopefully you are fine there.
i'll pray for you, everytime i remember you.
Al-Fatihah :(


we miss you so badly Apek :( 

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Happy birthdayy apek.

today 25th December 2011, its your birthday.
just wishing you happy 22th birthday and i love you.
how can i tell you that i miss you badly.
i miss you. :')
i miss your voice, i miss your laugh, i miss the way you stare at me, i miss the whole thing about you.
life isn't easy right.
i've been trough a lot of things, and life changes me.
i'm a grow up person. but somehow i need you by my side.
i need someone to lead me,teach me, and take care of me.
i need you.
thinking about you, makes my heart breaks.
you're too young honey.
it's too hard to think of.
there's too much pain.
when i've a flashback, it make me sad. really sad.
i wish you would be here, with us.
we all love you.
its hard, its really hard.
i did take time to be okay,and now i think i'm okay.
living a new chapter of my life.
as 20 years old person.
but sometimes i've no direction. no one can understand what i've been trough for past year.
you are my best buddy. i miss you. i miss you.
i wish i could see you again.
you take a good care of me. thank you. thank you Amirul.
i love you. happy 22th birthday.
doa kami sentiasa untuk you.
semoga ditempakan dikalangan orang yang beriman. amin.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

living without you

amirul,
are you fine there? yeahh to be honest i miss you :( too many things happen to me.
can i meet you for the last time. can i hug you for the last time :( i miss you so much!
may you rest in peace there.

i'll alwaysw pray for your happiness there. i miss you.