no more you and him.

saya dah hilang segalanya. first thing is awak. awak pergi tglkan saya mcmtuu je. for this 4 month, i cant stop crying when i think about you mirul. i cant accept the faith that you are gone. till now , i cant believe that you are not with us anymore. ape yang saya buat selama ni, it reminds me of you. i miss you badly.

second thing is, saya dah hiland dia. he leave me. saya buat salah. he is the best among the rest you know ! 1 year with him, and it means a lot ! but what can i do ? im the one who always make him hurts.

i cant breath now. i dont know where did i put my inhaler. if i die tonight, i wish i can meet you amirul. and i can see firdaus by my side, crying. i wish for it.

thank you baby, for hurting me. saya dah agak ini mungkin akan terjadik. kalau saya dah tade, hope awak akan sentiasa engat saya. saya sayangkan awak. terlalu sayangkan awak.

i miss you s o badly, APEK :(

i miss you

cousin saya accident semalam. sama macam awak. kepala dia terok. you know what ? i am crying. suddenly, saya teringatkan awak. coz awak accident terok dekat kepala jugak. awak tak dapat hidup lama :( and alhamdulillah, nothings bad happen to shafi. cuma kepala dia berdarah terok.

awak, saya rinduu awak. dua hari lepas saya pergi secret recipe Desa Park City. tempat kita kenal duluu. we work together. awak ngorat saya, awak curi hati saya. saya teringat awak. boleh saya menanges lagi ? hmmm, saya pasrah awak dah tade dalam hidup saya. its hard to let you go.

rest in peace syg. hopefully we will meet again.

why you leave me ?

been realizing some things as i have been living without you. things just aren’t the same. nothing seems to taste as good. the sites of this city are just dull. and every place in my home has a reminder of you. i found your card in my box yesterday morning. i don’t even know how it got there, but i started crying. i started crying. b, i miss you :'(

everyone miss you now sayang :(

mirul, you tahu tak ramai org rinduukan you ? and still harap that one day you will be back. and im including that people. i harap sgt one day you will alive back. and i promise i will never let you go again. i miss you mirul. sumpah rinduu terlalu. i nak dgr suara you lagi sekali. can i ? i nak tgk you gelak depan i, you menanges depan i. i nak dgr you marah marah i :( pleaseee. for the last time.  

anyway, im 20 now baby. you engat tak birthday i duluu. i paksa you beli cake i. and last last you mintak duet mak, and you bawak i pergi one utama carik cake. and kita beli air semua kan ? saya rinduu tuu sume. even awak beli cake lambat, tp saya hargai. 

anyway, tadi ada kwn saya mintak url blog. and i bg url blog kita. and i told her that i miss you so much. and you know what, suddenly im crying. dah terlalu lama i simpan perasaan i neyh mirul. and it really kills me now. please, bring me together with you :( i nak jumpa you sgt sgt ! i tahu you tahu ape i rasa. cuma you tak boleh muncul depan i kann ? 

 sayang, pleasee answer me. i need you now. im dying you know ! i need your support. please gimme strength to live :( please stay by my side. i need you boo. yes i do.

AL-Fatihah.