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Hey ! It's me Syaza. Here is all about my memories with Arwah Amirul. Since we were inlove, then we break then next he's gone forever. My sincere thanks to those who became my follower and keep on reading my post. Im back here again :( I miss you so much Mirul !

Saturday, April 25, 2009

effin bored + sad = stupid of me

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im fucking fuck myself aite fo the fucking shit reason who fucking make me fucking angry with myself and im fucking stupid fo caring this fucking stupid problem which fucking burden me and fucking stupid make me let my fucking tears fucking run down which fucking nobody will fucking know how i fucking feel in this fucking momment that i fucking can stand anymore ! URGH !well, sorry fo too many insulting. i'm just effin fucking mad. oops, i did it again ! whatever -.-

Thursday, April 16, 2009

no title ;((

what shoul i do now ? everything seems hate me now. ape yg aku wat sume x btol *tears* .

baby,
how can i forget you hah ?
how can i find another guy if in my heart i just want you ;((

mama,
kakyong taw kakyong bukan anak harapan mama.
tapi x bleyh kew mama bg smg skeyt pown kurt kakyong ?

weyh ! i think i should die. seriously !aku da ta mampu na tanggong neyh sume da. aku ta larat
;(nobody even care how much i hurt, how pain in my heart.

OH GOD !
please take me.
aku ta spatotnyer hidop dlm dunia engkaw neyh.
aku x mampu tanggung neyh sume.
aku hambamu yg lemah.

rull,
if i maty i harap u bahgie ;)
i akan bhgie juge ble kaw bhgie syng.
sorry for everything baby .

mama,
kakyong minta maaf.
i know i cant be the best but i try too.
tapi sume bg mama tade makne.maafkn salah kakyong mama.

p/s : sorry now jarang update. prob besepah kurt kepale otak aku skunk ;((

Friday, April 10, 2009

he is mine !

ILYSDM. nobody can replace you in my heart. damn ! dont you know how important you are in my life ? dont leave me again baby. im surely die living without you. we were meant togetehr baby. BITCHES ! HE'S MINE ! JUST MINE ! cant you understand it hahhh ?

Thursday, April 9, 2009

he is back larh !


he is back ;DD baby ily. thanx bg i pluang kedua. janji pasni i dgr ckp u syng. i ta nakal nakal da. syng awk !

it just for you mirul ;(

we were the happiest couple, *i guess so* .i started to really really love him after we were together. seriously, its hard to love someone. and so that is why this guy, i really really love and i tried to take good care of him cuz im not as as perfect as other girls. and yeah, i do. i've swear for god sake, this is the one. i do need him all my life. ;"(

and noww after almost five months we havee been sailing in this love boat, when i really love him, he left me for a reason that i dont know whats the reason is ;( he walkaway and left without words. but still, i'm here, waiting and waiting and waiting ;"(

baby; i'll pray for your happiness
even its hurts me when i see you happy with other girl.
this heart still breathing for your love,
syahnafiza yaacob

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

is it our ending baby ?

betul ke ? ini penghujungnya ? hanya kerana tekanan, dia lepaskan semuanya. aku terpaku saat melihat kata-katanya. hati terdetik, "sampai hati awk wat sayer mcmni !" ;( aku tertekan. hati terbit perasaan hampa. hancur seperti pasir. ibarat takkan tersambung lagi. mati seperti dulu.

*menangis*

hati menyanyikan irama yang mendayu dayu. fikiran melayang. teringat saat itu. hari bahagia itu. saat pertama kali kenal. saat pertama kali mengikat ikatan ini. saat pertama kali bertemu. saat pertama kali bergaduh dan kembali baik. saat pertama kali menikmati segala-galanya. tapi, kini semua dah terputus. melayang-layang, tak dapat aku capai. hati menjerit, "sial!", air mata jatuh menderu ;"(

kau yang memulakan, kau yang mengakhirkan.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

end of story ;((

kaw tinggalkan aku cam babi jew ! babi ahh kaw cilake pundek !
*tears*
baby , sumpaa i syng kurt u lagi. tapi stop laa wat i cmni. i need you back ;((

Sunday, April 5, 2009

day by day, our relation is getting BORING ! *no more sweet text/no more phone call* from him. since the day i meet him, i can feel the different between us. SERIOUS SHIT ! i didnt get any message from him since April 1st.

"BABY, whats wrong with our relation now ? everything suddenly changes. dont you ever miss me ?"

ohh gosh. i dont know what i think about. am i getting bored to be inlove with him ? i dont have the answer right now. *tears*

Thursday, April 2, 2009

favourite dow ! haha

I'm liking the picture above. Who doesn't duhh.You don't have to tell me whats right & wrong, THX. JUST SAVE IT.