unholy Confession

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Hey ! It's me Syaza. Here is all about my memories with Arwah Amirul. Since we were inlove, then we break then next he's gone forever. My sincere thanks to those who became my follower and keep on reading my post. Im back here again :( I miss you so much Mirul !

Monday, March 30, 2009








aku dgn dorg yang gyler ;)) haha ;)) lepak pd same same ;)
kakyong//sheta//adek am
sumpaa besh lol !


Saturday, March 28, 2009



Love,
Knowing someone love us,
Make us happy.

Doubt,
Letting doubt possess our heart,
Is a big mistake.

Doubting their love,
Lead us to sorrow,
With which we fear.

Love,
Just say it,
Never bury it deep down our heart.

The consequences,
may cause heartbrake of the other.

my baby ekey ;)

comel tak ? ney laa baby sayer ;)
syahdaniel riezqie ;)
ily baby ;))

Friday, March 27, 2009

untuk kaw la syng !


kaw tahu aku rinduu kaw ? ahh, aku cuba tahan. memang la tahan tapi sampai bile ? bile nak bersua muke lagi ? bile nak sepak terajang ? pelok pelok ? aduhh rinduu kaw laa syng !

*syaza,mula dah kaw punya poyo*ahh biaa laa aku yg taipkan

aku rinduu cara kaw tengok aku. rinduu kaw pegang tangan aku. rinduu dgr kaw ejek aku *cousin aku ckp un kite cam catdog tapi sgt romantik bile bersame.AHHA* aku nak kaw depan mate aku larh !

*cis, ayat tak tahan nak gedik*

yalaa tiap tiap hary dengar suara kaw dlm tepon. mane nak lepas un rinduu aku kan ? da sminggu kite x jumpe. nnty aku tw jumpe. ta jumpe cyap kaw !

lagi satu. aku syng kaw lar bobot
*bersengih sendiri di hadapan komputer*

i hate myself ;(



sumpah, kadang2 aku nak give updah tak boleh tahan lagi dah.PENAT ! itulahh yang hati aku selalu merungut. selalu mengadu.sampai bilaaku kene tahan semua neyhh ? aku nak hidup normal.PLEASE ? =(
pasal hidup aku BOSAN,
pfft ! everyday is the SAME !
kenape tak ade yang laen ?
orang sane snini kejar hot
kutuk mengutuk
pulau memulauupukul memukul
tapi aku ?
one word, *HAMBAR*
dah laa,aku dah tak larat nak tekan keyboard yang memekak bila aku tekan neyh.
*tears*

i miss you guys weyh ;(


*ocha//memey*

*rusza/syaza/arena*

*loly/elmo/syaza*

*ex dorm-mate*

*una/jaja/syaza*

best friends, i dont know what happens to us. but i just want u to know that i love && miss you so much. i try to be a good friends for u but i can't be that. i always remember && think about u even i know u are not remember && think about me. u are always in my hearts even we are too far now. i try to happy,laugh && enjoy my life by myself without you but it still not the same. sorry for everything *tear* i know sometimes im too selfish but i try to care your hearts as i can coz i dont want to lose u && i want u to be happy with me.i think i am losing u now. take care. i pray for u. if u need me,i always there or u.
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING
nota kaki : not in picture *lynn/niena* imy guy weyh ! ;(
love;
syahnafiza yaacob









Thursday, March 26, 2009

whats goin on ?



aku nak jadi yang baru.
yang berani untuk segalanya.
bangkit selepas tersungkur lah ni kononnya :)
*repeat my exam back*
*try to find a better job*
*coba untok berubah walaupon agak payah*
mampu kew ?
try aje laa kan.
mane taw dapat brubah ;D
nota kaki : manusia berubah apabila tersedar dari dunia yg palsu semate
*tataw laa ape aku ngarut kali ney*

ily BOBOT !

everytime you say, everytime we kissing,
i cant think straight. and i cant think of anybody else.
i hate ti miss as much as i hate to missing you.
months go strong now, and ni goodbye.
unconditional, unoriginal.
you always by myside. mean to be togetehr.
meant for no one but each other.
you love me, i love you harder so.
so please gimme your hands.
please gimme a lesson.
on how to steal. steal the heart.
as fast as you stole my heart.

PS : I LOVEEEEEEEEE YOU SO MUCH BOBOT !

boredom kills me larr !



*aku yang gila*



*nenek yg rawk*



*ekey and i said "shout it loud"*

bilaa kebosanan melanda ney laa keje aku ;DD

haha lawa un aku *gilo perasan lawa muke cam da cam orng gila da*





message aku yang bodoh !

"baby bobot !
topup laa ariney.
syaza rindu awk laa syng.
rinduu tu menyaketkan.
nk kish ! nk kish !
sumpaa i ske lip u yg noty gyler vavi tu.
aku kagen bangat same kamuBOBOT !
u x topup u x syng i.syng syng !
chenta sayer kurt awk taleyh pdm.nk kawen !
lame towl tgu u masok meminang i.haha.
syng u mirul. "

ini text yg aku hantar kurt mirul razaili pg td.
haha aku masok aer dow ! bleyh merapu merapu ayat aku kasi dye ;)
fuck ohh aku mcm sangap gyler kurt dye skg.
weyh syng ! rindu gyler dowh kurt kaw.
bgon tdow td tbe tbe aku terengat kurt lip kaw yg sexy tuh.
when your lip touch my lip *especially slalu terjadik tyme kami bangun tdow*
i can feel how deep u love me baby.
not just only dat oke.
syng syng pelok laa i ! pelok laa !*gatal gyler aku*
rinduu gyler kurt tangan u yg gatal tuh ble berjalan jalan kurt pinggang i ;)
wee ~i can hear your heart beating fast syng while i doing that.
i also can feel your *boboy* suddenly wake up ;pp

p/s: act sayer dgn mirul da oke kowt. pagi tadi dlm kowl 4 elbeyh he askesd me too call him.waa . he miss me. taw pown u rinduu i ble i hilang. haa laen kali ckp lagi tanak contact sminggu.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

pussy & boboy

pussy : boboy boboy ;)
boboy : ye pussy syng ;)
pussy : boboy rindu pussy x ? lame s jumpe un. pussy da mule jadik gyler rinduu !
boboy : boboy rinduu pussy jugak laa. rinduu sgt sgt. sangap gyler kowt kurt pussy.nak tiom tiom. geget geget. boboy dukong pussy , pussy dukong boboy.sangap ohh !
pussy : pussy suke pussy suke . boboy pussy ta tahan laa. tbe tbe rase dahage sgt. tbe tbe tringin minom aer yang boboy slalu kasi pussy minom uh.
boboy : nnty boboy bg pussy oke. pussy boboy tbe tbe lapaa laa. nak mkn ..
pussy : nak mkn ? dtng laa jumpe pussy. pussy bg boboy mkn sampai kenyang. sampai boboy pwas.pussy bwat special. khas towk boboy syng ;))
boboy :yekew ? geram laa. x sbr nak jmpe pussy boboy neyh. jumpe mlm neyh buleyh ? da x sbr laa.
pussy : boleyh boleyh. mlm neyh line clear. dtng oke. lame sgt tahan geram mengidam aer boboy.boboy : oke pussy syng. jumpe mlm nnty oke. ily. bye.
pussy : ilyt boboy. bye.


tapaham ? ahah ! x suruh pown kaw orng paham post neyh.mcm ayat porno ? agak agak skeyt weyh !hanyer * aku dan dye * saje yg taw maksod d sbalik ayat tuh.tade kene mengene dgn bende bende lucah oke.kan kan syng ?
ps : bobot ! nonot suke laa kalau bobot ckp lucah lucah ngan nonot. haha ;DD(gatal nyer aku bodoh !)

new name ;)

btw nak bgtaw
now ATOK KEREPOT da bertukaa kepada BABY BOBOT

Saturday, March 21, 2009

dye curang ataw aku bangang ?

wey ! boring dowh mlm neyh.
sumpaa rinduu gyler kurt my baby. sape lagi si atok kerepot tuh laa.
ey dak kicik rinduu atok gyler vavi ohh !
tapi dye langsung ta text aku.fhm fhm jew laa.
kami gado.hary hary sure gado jew.

btw, almost 4 month kami bersame ohh. gosh ! i cant believe it dat our relationship can go far like this. too much thing we share each other and too much memory dat we make it together ;))
even u slalu wat i nanges tapi i tapenaa heran skeyt pown. kite gado cmne pown we still never end up our relation ryte.

(time gadoh dgn boifren boifren)
DULU : ey tade laky pown aku mampu hidop laa! bukan mati pown kalau kaw hilang.ramai lagi leyh jadik pengganti kaw.
SKG : i can't live without you baby. if u leave me, im surely dead.no one can replaced you in my heart.

haha. love change people ryte.

eyh eyh. ape ape ? kaw ckp ape hah ?
dye curang ?
hey babi !agak agak laa nak ckp laki aku cmtu.i know my boy very well. dye tapenaa laa nak layan mane mane bitches out there or nombor2 sesat yg kacau dye.kalau kaw rase kaw bgos sgt nak try jadik madu aku or pmpwan simpanan laki aku try arr kalau buleyh. nak numb dye eyh ? nak kacau dye ? or kaw nak wat ktorg gado ? bleyh bleyh. mintak kurt aku. aku kasik punyer. aku yg hebat ney dulu pown before dpt dye penaa try kacau. tapi know what he do to me. dye maki aku suke suke dye ade laa. so tapayaa nak wat cite dye curang ngan aku okeh ! aku taw sgt prangai dye laa.
aku bangang ?
apahal lak kaw nak ckp aku cmtu ? sbb aku pilih laki cm dye ? hey pegi mampus laa dgn hidop aku. kaw sibok pahal.aku da pilih dye so nape ? kaw jelez. kaw engat kaw hawt kaw mmpu dpt kan aku baleyk laa.hey TTYH larh ! aku ta perlu laki hawt cam kaw ataw sesape pown.wat susaa hdop aku jew. betine sane sini. mcm laa kaw hensem sgt.bg aku laki aku lg hensem laa. more loyal then you oke!


so, kepade sape sape yg kutok aku dgn laki aku or try hancurkan relation kami, kaw boleyh pegi mampus.idk who he is and what people say bout us. what i know is i love him much than i love you ! so do him ! heyh fucker ! kalau kaw ckp dye x layak utk aku laa, aku boleyh carik laky lagi bagos laa, ape laa un un.kaw cermin diri kaw sendiri dulu oke. kaw lagi x layak nk berade disamping aku bodoh !


kenape aku ckp dye setia dgn aku ?

smlm tah dari mane tah tbe2 terlintas dlm kepale otak aku idea jahat. idea nak kenekan dye.aku taw dye jujur dgn aku tapi saje nak mengacau. aku kan si kecik yg nakal (mirul slalu ckp cmtu) haha ;DDso lakonan bermule. aku ciptakan diana rahim dlm keje jahat aku neyh.starting from mskowl. the story begin when he text dat 'diana rahim'.

plan pertama

mrul:kamu sape ?
dyna:oh hey!diana here.
mrul:diana mane?ley bg resume x?
dyna:xtaw la u kenal x.i pown x knal u.saje kacau2 dpt.diana rahim 20 pj. u?
mrul:pelik!cmne dpt no ni??amirul dok sg buloh.
dyna:up to u to trust it.jom hang out saturday neyh nak?jap . u ade gf x ? fon ade mms?
mrul:herm ok.nak hang out?u n i ? gf ade ade.mms pown ade.ngape ye?

kami pown keep on message.mintak dye hantar gmbr.tp dye ckp crdt tade.terpakse laa aku hantar. tapi dye ckp dye ta dapat mms (bodoo jugak aku kan.dye gune hpon ape.cmne nak dpt mms uh).

plan kedua

terpakse gune plan kedua. tapi bukan aku yg tanyer dye ade myspace x. dye yg tanyer aku. kire oke laa.mule mule aku nak kasi blog. tapi pk pk baleyk kantoi laa bg address. terpakse laa bg myspace. tapi lucky akupandai aku kasik dye last name aku. aku engat dye nak bukak. rupe rupenyer dye suruh add dye plak.adoiyai. dye ta tgk lagi laa muke aku.

tbe tbe dye suruh hntr mms. yes ! plan pertame bejalan. he asked diana to send picture to his second num (engat aku bodoo kew. tuu numb mak kaw laa ngok!).haha. know what happen after he received diana's picture ? he text my numb after dat. tapi terharu gyler dgn text dye especially yg 3 dan 4.

mrul:haha da agak da u ingt i bodo ke ha?x yah blakon r syaa i tau laa u nk test i..amcm pedih aty ?syza:haha..skeytpown xpedih.
mrul:da laa syaa i sje sje antar msg cm2.mule mule je i da tau laa.
syza:but i dont feel hurts even a bit.cume i rase bodo threat u dis way.just want to get some mood.
mrul:haha.u i bukan knal u smalam auw i knl u 6bln yg lepas auw.i sje je x antar no ni sbb i tau ni u.
syza:thanx darl.i know who u are.u never be nice to other stranger.dats y i dont wanna loose u baby. n now im too happy to have u in my life.
mrul:sya i x bleyh nk syng org laen slaen u syng pecayelaa.i da warning u awal2 i nak serious da n i xnk men un pompwan ag.

serious biaa laa dye mat rempit or whteva fucking pown,
he is da best boy that i ever had.dye lagi setia dari laki yang konon konon nyer jambu.
im too proud to having him in my life dr laky yg taw maenkan pmpwan jew.

on dat nyte jugak kami gayut for two hours ;))
melepas kan segala rinduu kowt !mirul nakal ! dye gune ayat ayat nakal.
cyot jew laki aku ney.nak kene cuci otak kowt bagi bersih.
haha ;DD believe me syng.
one day u will get everything from me.
nnty every nyte what projek mcm yg u nak tuh oke haha ;DD
(layan jew laa gyler otak dye mlm tuh)

tapi last last kami gado.nanges nanges aku mlm tadi ble dye tbe tbe tanak ckp dgn aku.
dye tros letak tepon smpai laa ke hary ney lgsung x text aku.

syng syng syng.
i give you all my heart and my soul dear.
u are da one dat i love so.
nobody can take me away from you coz u hold da key to my heart.
just you !
baby, do hold me tightly and dont ever let me go.
u do need me as i need u too.
iloveyousodamnfuckingmuch MIRUL RAZAILI ;)

im sorry for what i've done ;(

Thursday, March 19, 2009

dye pegi PLKN da ;((



credit to shafirol amir <333
will missing yah efi ;(
meet again on june 8 .take care yah.jgn nakal nakal auw !
[our last memory together ;((]

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

sedeyh sedeyh ;((






knape ntah aku tade mood nak menulis.
apek ohh apek ..
aku rinduu kaw laa.malam tadi bangon tdow nanges nanges pk pasal kaw jew.kaw jgn tgl kan aku ohh.
plz plz plz.aku syng gyler kurt kaw.sumpah !

Monday, March 16, 2009

tgk wayang !

meet amirul razaili !
g tgk wayang cyter rasukan ablasa.besh cyot. panggung wayang tuh mcm tmpt kami berdua jew.
haha sebab ta ramai orng ade pown.
just ade 4 orng termasok kami.
kesimpulan cyter tuh not bad laa.

saspen pown tade laa banyak sgt.
cume tentang persahabatan dorg tuh yang wat aku terharu sgt.
seyes besh kalau ade kawan cam dlm cyter uh.
kawan yang sgop berkorban towk kawan dye yang laen.
tapi starting cyter tuh agak seronok gak laa.wat aku ngan mirul tutt jew ;pp

Saturday, March 14, 2009

jalan jalan d pavillion


ney gambar aku ngan elmo tyme kwar tadi ;))


jalan jalan ;)
today aku hang out. saje nak melepas un tension dowk rumaa.i miss my mirul. agak lame xkwar same.tapi kalau aku ajak dye pown dye bukan nyer nak kwar pown.susaa towl laa.


hurm .. know what. cam bese laa aku jalan jalan dgn gay gay sedunia.haha last last aku ngan el lary dari dorg.x sangke dpt meet baleyk memey ;) rinduu dye kowt. ex scandal aku dulu.dulu aku punyer laa syng dye. tapi skunk da tade pape.setia pade AMIRUL jew kowt ;pp dye kwar dgn kazen dye c acap uh.


den jalan jalan lagi meet plak dgn emy my ex bf yg sblowm neyh.bukan dye jew. dak dak sentol yg aku kenal laa.nk ckp syng tak jugak kurt c emy uh. nak ckp x syng tipuu la kan.hurm aku anggap dye kawan jew kowt.da tade prasaan cm dulu daa.


and last last meet c cerry yang gyler !lepak lame jugak laa. cyan u un skunk band da x laku.haha ;DD
ney gmbar aku and elmo tyme hang out arytuh.gyler selekeh dowl ;pp




Wednesday, March 11, 2009

imissmyoldroomweyh !

romeo and juliet


Juliet adalah daun, Romeo adalah angin, yg datang tiba-tiba, meniup rindu, menghembus asa, membuai daun, hingga kadang, daun menjadi hijau segar, namun ketika angin berlalu, hilang begitu saja di putaran waktu, daun itu menguning, sebelum sang waktu menjemputnya, karena terjatuh di tanah, biarlah daun itu gugur, karena kehendak Sang Alam, bukan karena tiupan kencang sang angin kembara, atau bukan karena tangkainya menjadi lemah, ketika tahu angin tlah pergi, menghilang tanpa bekas, meninggalkannya layu membiarkannya kering, terjatuh terkubur debu bumi, itulah Juliet, tempatnya mencari kesejukan, dan dipaksa dikeringkan, yang sering tak terpikirkan, dilupakan akan kekuatannya, buat abadikan cinta si ROMEO & JULIET.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

rinduu rinduu rinduu !

to : amirul razaili !
i missed you damn fucking much baby !
god i just want to meet him everyday . plz plz plz ;((

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

stay rumaa shafi ;)

weyh aku stay kurt rumaa kazen aku
start hary neyh auw !
(4 march 2008 until 9 march 2008)
papahal kowl aku jew !

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

ini nenek sayer ;)



nenek sayer yang rawk walaweyh !
kakyong syng nenek sgt sgt ;))
ney nenek aku. dye memang sporting gyler .
haha . sebab tu aku syng dye ;))

Monday, March 2, 2009

story of AXXARULL

meet amirul razaili today !
he make my heart beat faster & faster when he touch me, he hold me tightly, he kissed me ;))
gambar kami yang sengal ;pp
sgt sgt sgt syng sama dea ;D
axxarull

syaza : atok tua sengal yang kerepot . sayer syng awk lar !
mirul : bdak kcik yg kepochi ni yg mereng..syng awak juge..

memory of us ;DD